Saturday, October 12, 2019
Berlin Wall Piece :: Sam Shepard
A Piece of History A seventh grader asks his dad about the eighties. Unfortunately his dad can't remember anything about the eighties;and the older sister helps him remember the past. ââ¬Å"Berlin Wall Piece,â⬠by Sam Shepard is a story where a small piece of concrete helps a crazy father remember his modern history. A theme for the story would be: how a small piece of history can bring back so many old memories and controversies. When the story first opens up, a seventh grader is interviewing his father for his social studies class. The father is being questioned by his own son or daughter. The story does not reveal the sex of the youngest child. The father is unaware of the past; he can't remember absolutely nothing. The youngest child is confused, and cannot understand why his father can't help him. The father explains to the child that there was nothing important going in the eighties. The most important and significant thing for his father was the birth of his two children and his wife. The rest of it was lies, trash, and insignificant things the world had offered him. The truth was that nothing more matter to him than his children and wife. He had everything in the world he could ever wish for. The young child could not understand his fathers intentions to his answers. It was all a big mystery. During the story his father tries to remember the moments he lived in the eighties; but nothing came to mind. It was like if he was never born. He knew nothing, everything was erased from his mind. Thankfully the oldest child knew much more than the father did. She could remember everything, she had an incredible memory. She helped out her younger sibling by telling her stories of the eighties. She knew a lot. She was a very smart girl who was just a year or so older than the younger child. She also knew political stuff that happened during the eighties. Like when she got a piece of the Berlin Wall that was destroyed back in the eighties. The younger child did not believe this was true. On the other hand the father was unaware of this. He was confused, he couldn't remember when his own child had visited the Berlin Wall. The older sister was amazed by his father's poor memory. She brought down a piece of the Berlin Wall from her bedroom.
Friday, October 11, 2019
The Twilight Saga 5: Midnight Sun 27. Deadlock
Warm, sweeping, glorious, relief, the most powerful emotion that had hit me in days, more forceful than my anger, my agonyâ⬠¦my pain, rushed over me. This emotion was so full of an alleviation and ease that all of the anguish and distress was leaving my body as I saw the emotions in Bella's eyes again. At the sight, I realized that I never truly appreciated her beauty. My eyes looked up as I silently prayed to whatever entity that kept her alive, letting them know how devoutly thankful I truly am. Looking back at her, the deep depths, the windows to her soul, continued to move in quick irregular motions as she reached up to pull the oxygen tube from her nose. ââ¬Å"No, you don't.â⬠I reached over to stop her hand. My chin was resting only inches from her face when her eyes finally met mine. She was disorientated. ââ¬Å"Edward?â⬠Her voice was hoarse, drained, like she was fatally wounded. A tiny pucker formed between her brows. She tried to focus on my face. ââ¬Å"Oh, Edward, I'm so sorry!â⬠She was sorry? What did she need to be sorry for? ââ¬Å"Shhhh.â⬠I attempted to stop her insanity. ââ¬Å"Everything's all right now.â⬠I tried to speak bracing words of comfort. She needn't be so anxious with her frail body being in such a broken state. ââ¬Å"What happened?â⬠Her words were slurred slightly, almost like she was drunk. Memories of the events that happened that fateful morning, which brought her to this place, rushed across my mind. My stomach bubbled with a sickening acid. ââ¬Å"I was almost too late. I could have been too late,â⬠I whispered, torment lacing each syllable. ââ¬Å"I was so stupid, Edward. I thought he had my mom.â⬠Of course, she would try to put the blame on herself. ââ¬Å"He tricked us all,â⬠I said, trying to ease her mind. She really should be resting. ââ¬Å"I need to call Charlie and my mom,â⬠worry was present in her eyesâ⬠¦always worried about someone else, anyone else, but herself. ââ¬Å"Alice called them. Rene is here ââ¬â well, here in the hospital. She's getting something to eat right now.â⬠ââ¬Å"She's here?â⬠She tried to sit up, her body swaying slightly. I couldn't let her hurt herself anymore so I lightly pushed her back down onto the pillows. ââ¬Å"She'll be back soon,â⬠I promised. ââ¬Å"And you need to stay still.â⬠ââ¬Å"But what did you tell her?â⬠Her voice was panicked. ââ¬Å"Why did you tell her I'm here?â⬠Even in her drugged stupor, she was still trying to protect our secret. Without effort, my love radiated out of me along with the agony that rippled through me at the thought of what actually happened just those two days ago. ââ¬Å"You fell down two flights of stairs and through a window.â⬠You were tortured by a vicious vampire and I was nearly too late. ââ¬Å"You have to admit, it could happen.â⬠I tried to lighten the mood with this small joke. She sighed at my bad humor and I could see her wince slightly at the pain it caused. Her eyes finally left mine to roam over her broken and mangled body. ââ¬Å"How bad am I?â⬠She asked, curious. This time I sighed. The damage was extensive. ââ¬Å"You have a broken leg, four broken ribs, some cracks in your skull, bruises covering every inch of your skin, and you've lost a lot of blood. They gave you a few transfusions. I didn't like it ââ¬â it made you smell all wrong for a while.â⬠I took in a deep breath at the luxurious scent that now filled the small room, letting it sting my throat with the pleasurable burning sensation. ââ¬Å"That must have been a nice change for you,â⬠she half smiled. She had it all wrong though. To imagine her without the palatable scent was almost unbearable, like I had drank all the goodness from her body and it was being replaced by some cheap imitation. ââ¬Å"No, I like how you smell.â⬠ââ¬Å"How did you do it?â⬠Her voice was strained. I knew what she was asking. Many memories stirred from that horrible morning. Blood was coming out of her in torrents, flooding the floor. The bloodâ⬠¦how did I stop? I remembered the pleasure and the pain that consumed my body at just the mere thought of her warm blood in my mouth, my burning throat with the accompanied obsessive longing finally being quenched. The thought tore at every nerve in my body. The disgust I felt didn't stop me though; I still brought her wrist to my mouth and drank from her. Even when she yanked around in my grasp, thrusting against my hold, screaming, I didn't let go. I didn't even know how I did it. ââ¬Å"I'm not sure,â⬠there was the tiniest quiver in my voice. Gently, I lifted her hand which was wrapped in white gauze, examining it carefully. Along with the ache that seared deep inside me, there was this new indication of what I was. A monster. A creature that should have no part in this angel's life. Lightly caressing her hand I shivered at this sick souvenir that would always be on her wrist which made my dead heart shatter. The wires that connected her to all the monitors were just another vivid reminder on top of everything else at how fragile and breakable she was. Each passing second felt like borrowed time. I sighed. ââ¬Å"It was impossibleâ⬠¦ to stop,â⬠my voice was low, a whisper. But I did stop; I was able to keep her alive. ââ¬Å"Impossible. But I did.â⬠My eyes met hers, a smile creeping up my face; a great rush of affection washing over me. ââ¬Å"I must love you.â⬠ââ¬Å"Don't I taste as good as I smell?â⬠She returned my smile. The satisfactionâ⬠¦the gratifyingly warm blood in my mouth ?C it was beyond delicious. It coursed through my body, sweeter than life. ââ¬Å"Even better ââ¬â better than I'd imagined.â⬠ââ¬Å"I'm sorry,â⬠she apologized. She wasâ⬠¦sorry? Again, what was with the apologies? If it wasn't for my stupidity in the first place she wouldn't have even been in the situation to have her blood sucked by me, of all creatures. I looked up to the ceiling in exasperation before returning my gaze to her. ââ¬Å"Of all the things to apologize for.â⬠ââ¬Å"What should I apologize for?â⬠For a moment I was lost in desperate speculation, thoughts consuming my mind momentarily. Only one thing came to mind. ââ¬Å"For very nearly taking yourself away from me forever.â⬠If her life had ended that dayâ⬠¦I shudderedâ⬠¦I too, would have died. ââ¬Å"I'm sorry,â⬠she apologized again. ââ¬Å"I know why you did it. It was still irrational, of course. You should have waited for me, you should have told me.â⬠At this, I realized maybe she didn't trust me as much as I thought. She shouldn't trust me. Because of me, she was here in this hospital bed, for several days, fighting to regain consciousness. ââ¬Å"You wouldn't have let me go,â⬠she explained, like I should have known this. ââ¬Å"No,â⬠I replied in a stern tone. ââ¬Å"I wouldn't.â⬠She shuddered and then slightly winced. My eyes roamed over her to find the culprit of her obvious pain, my nerves being pulled tighter at her discomfort. ââ¬Å"Bella, what's wrong?â⬠I pleaded She ignored me, wanting more answers. ââ¬Å"What happened to James?â⬠James, I growled internally; the enemy being brought to the forefront of my mind. ââ¬Å"After I pulled him off you, Emmett and Jasper took care of him,â⬠I said with clenched teeth. Bella needed me, I knew that, but regardless, jealousy still rippled through me at the thought that it wasn't me who got to pull him apart ââ¬â it wasn't me who burned him. Her eyebrow furrowed. ââ¬Å"I didn't see Emmett and Jasper there.â⬠ââ¬Å"They had to leave the roomâ⬠¦ there was a lot of blood.â⬠Everyone's actions that night caught me off guard; all of them behaving like there was not a single drop of blood spilled in the building. Luckily, we all have no need for oxygen. ââ¬Å"But you stayed,â⬠she stated with a deep fervor, her face smoothing. ââ¬Å"Yes, I stayed.â⬠Obviously, I stayed. She needed meâ⬠¦she would have died. Preventing that was most important. ââ¬Å"And Alice, and Carlisle â⬠¦Ã¢â¬ she said in conjecture. Of course they stayed, too. They consider her part of our family. ââ¬Å"They love you, too, you know.â⬠ââ¬Å"Did Alice see the tape?â⬠She asked anxiously. ââ¬Å"Yes,â⬠I gritted my teeth. I remembered watching the tape through Alice's mind, the things he did to Bella ?C the way he taunted me on the video. ââ¬Å"She was always in the dark, that's why she didn't remember,â⬠Bella explained, distracting me. I nodded. ââ¬Å"I know. She understands now,â⬠I said darkly. That was all James did; hurt people and their families, only leaving reminders of his presence. Bella's hand came up to reach for my face, but the IV stopped her from moving far. ââ¬Å"Ugh.â⬠She winced. My head came up from her pillow, concerned. ââ¬Å"What is it?â⬠I asked anxiously, the image of James still in my view ?C anger still coursing through me. ââ¬Å"Needles,â⬠she explained, looking up like she was going to be sick. She took several deep breaths. Instantly, the anger left my body as humor replaced it. The absurdity of it all ?C she was beaten by a vampire, yet thisâ⬠¦needle, of all things, makes her sick. ââ¬Å"Afraid of a needle,â⬠I muttered under my breath, shaking my head. ââ¬Å"Oh, a sadistic vampire, intent on torturing her to death, sure, no problem, she runs off to meet him. An IV, on the other handâ⬠¦Ã¢â¬ She rolled her eyes. ââ¬Å"Why are you here?â⬠She asked. Instantly, I felt a chill in my stomach. I just stared at her, surveying her face, confusion sweeping over me. Then, it hit me. Maybe she didn't want me here, which is understandable, but it still made my heart ache, my body shriveled in pain. My eyebrows pulled together as a frown replaced my previous amusement. ââ¬Å"Do you want me to leave?â⬠An obvious grimace appearing on my face. ââ¬Å"No!â⬠She protested as loudly as she could. ââ¬Å"No, I meant, why does my mother think you're here? I need to have my story straight before she gets back.â⬠ââ¬Å"Oh,â⬠I breathed, once again, relief burst through me; understanding replacing confusion. She still wants me here! Happiness swelled inside me like a balloon. ââ¬Å"I came to Phoenix to talk some sense into you, to convince you to come back to Forks.â⬠I fixed my face, like I was trying to convince her myself, proving this lie was convincing. ââ¬Å"You agreed to see me, and you drove out to the hotel where I was staying with Carlisle and Alice ââ¬â of course I was here with parental supervision,â⬠I infused innocently, ââ¬Å"but you tripped on the stairs on the way to my room andâ⬠¦ well, you know the rest. You don't need to remember any details, though; you have a good excuse to be a little muddled about the finer points.â⬠Looking into her eyes I could see her mental processes whirling around before she spoke. ââ¬Å"There are a few flaws with that story. Like no broken windows,â⬠she said matter-of-factly. ââ¬Å"Not really,â⬠I chuckled lightly under my breath. ââ¬Å"Alice had a little bit too much fun fabricating evidence. It's all been taken care of very convincingly ââ¬â you could probably sue the hotel if you wanted to. You have nothing to worry about,â⬠I assured her, caressing her cheek with the lightest of touches, letting her warmth envelope me. ââ¬Å"Your only job now is to heal,â⬠I ordered. I continued to trace my fingers around her magnificent face. Her heart began to jump around wildly, the monitor echoing the erratic palpitations. ââ¬Å"That's going to be embarrassing,â⬠she muttered. This could be more amusing than I realized. Now her heart was beating loudly enough for both of us to hear with all of this equipment magnifying it. I chuckled. ââ¬Å"Hmm, I wonderâ⬠¦Ã¢â¬ I leaned in, deliberately trying to hear her reaction; the beeping noise hammered quickly along with her heart before my cold lips even reached her warm ones. Her heart continued to beat a little faster as I slowly moved in for the kiss. Gently, I reminded myself; placing my lips upon hers, sending a spine tingling sensation through me as she lightly moaned in pleasure. Her heart was racing before it gave a huge bound and then it stopped altogether. Panic hit. I pulled back instantly as the light beeping noise started again. Relief, a feeling that seemed to be recurring over and over today, swept over me. ââ¬Å"It seems that I'm going to have to be even more careful with you than usual,â⬠I grimaced. ââ¬Å"I was not finished kissing you,â⬠she grumbled. ââ¬Å"Don't make me come over there.â⬠Affection gushed up inside me and against my careful stature; a smile crept up my face at her obvious love for me. It was amazing that she still yearned to be with me like I craved to be with her. After everything I had done to her she still wished for a proximity that I was still reluctant to give her; I was filled with a trepidation that I would hurt her, break her, kill her somehow. Despite my thoughts, I still bent down to press my lips lightly to hers. The heat crept up my face and down my veins as it brought warmth to my cold heart. In the hallway, I could hear a discussion being whispered. ââ¬Å"How long will it take before she wakes up?â⬠Rene asked the nurse. Soon, please tell me soon! ââ¬Å"It's up to her, Mrs. Dwyer.â⬠ââ¬Å"Well, thanks anyways,â⬠she sounded defeated. Edward is still in there I bet ?C they have had enough time alone. Who knows what those crazy kids were up to before this accident happened. I pulled out of our kiss. ââ¬Å"I think I hear your mother,â⬠I smiled. ââ¬Å"Don't leave me,â⬠she cried irrationally. Terror was obvious in her deep brown eyes. ââ¬Å"I won't,â⬠I promised solemnly, and then I smiled serenely. ââ¬Å"I'll take a nap.â⬠I jumped from the stiff plastic chair by her side to the turquoise artificial-leather recliner at the foot of her bed, leaning it all the way back, and closing my eyes. I became a statue. ââ¬Å"Don't forget to breathe,â⬠she whispered mockingly. Going along with her humor I took a deep breath, my eyes remained closed. Rene's light echoing footsteps moved towards the door before she lightly pressed against it, causing the door to crack open. She's awake! Rene thought excitedly. Her eyes peeked through the space, hoping to sneak a peek at a possible conversation, eavesdropping before she opened the door all the way to rush towards Bella's open eyes. ââ¬Å"Mom!â⬠Bella croaked out, her voice relieved. Oh, my baby girl, Rene's mind was easing slightly. Through her eyes I could see my still form feigning sleep. Ah, he's asleepâ⬠¦but still here. Her annoyed thoughts became verbal. ââ¬Å"He never leaves, does he?â⬠she muttered. ââ¬Å"Mom, I'm so glad to see you!â⬠Bella ignored her mom's spoken thought. Rene's expression cleared, her eyes returning to her daughter. Forget Edwardâ⬠¦my baby. My beautiful baby girl. She's awake. Tears flowed down Rene's cheeks as she bent down to hug Bella awkwardly. ââ¬Å"Bella, I was so upset!â⬠Rene spluttered through her tears and other inarticulate sounds. I should have never, ever let her go to Forks. What was I thinking? I'm such a fool. ââ¬Å"I'm sorry, Mom. But everything's fine now, it's okay,â⬠Bella tried to reassure her. She's sorry? I'm sorry! Everything's not okay. Look at herâ⬠¦all the bruises. At Rene's thoughts, my stomach tightened sickeningly with pain. I felt a pang of unease. The bruisesâ⬠¦the broken bonesâ⬠¦they were my fault, no one else's. Sick images swam in my head and continued to come at me relentlessly. Every part of me ached with my idiocy ?C my ignorance ?C at what my clandestine existence ultimately brought to Bella. Thoughts of leaving her echoed through my head, but my love continued to pulse in my heart, my inability to leave her growing stronger. The ongoing battle continued to ensue inside me. ââ¬Å"I'm just glad to finally see your eyes open.â⬠Rene sat down at the end of Bella's bed. Her eyes are so sparkly. To think that there was a possibility that they could never open againâ⬠¦she grew sick at the thought, letting it trail off to images of coffins and people dressed in black. Struggling, I tried to push her images from my mind fiercely. My lurking doubts started resurfacing in my mind. I should leave Bella to her life, stop destroying her future. ââ¬Å"How long have they been closed?â⬠Bella gasped, her mouth forming a little O of horror. ââ¬Å"It's Friday, hon, you've been out for a while.â⬠ââ¬Å"Friday?â⬠Her voice was full of stunned disbelief. The two worst days of my life. I had to agree with Rene's thoughts, except they were the worst two days of my entire existence. ââ¬Å"They had to keep you sedated for a while, honey ââ¬â you've got a lot of injuries.â⬠ââ¬Å"I know,â⬠Bella winced. ââ¬Å"You're lucky Dr. Cullen was there. He's such a nice manâ⬠¦ very young, though. And he looks more like a model than a doctorâ⬠¦Ã¢â¬ If I wasn't marriedâ⬠¦ ââ¬Å"You met Carlisle?â⬠Bella interrupted her fantasy. ââ¬Å"And Edward's sister Alice. She's a lovely girl.â⬠The whole family is breath taking. What kind of food are they feeing them? Only if she knew of the consequences of having our beauty and the blood we drink to continue our deplorable existence. ââ¬Å"She is,â⬠Bella agreed sincerely, unstinting devotion, love emitting from Bella's eyes in rays of emotion. Suddenly I was in Rene's vision. Wow, she really does feel strongly for this family. But, what about this boy? He seems to be around much more than the rest. ââ¬Å"You didn't tell me you had such good friends in Forks,â⬠Rene said suspiciously, turning back to Bella but continuing to steal glances of me over her shoulder. I wonder what their deal isâ⬠¦ Rene was busy stealing another glance over her shoulder when Bella moaned in pain. The lamentation of grief reached Rene's ears, her eyes quickly found Bella's. So did mine, flashing open as soon as her mom's attention was no longer on me, panic coursing through me. ââ¬Å"What hurts?â⬠she demanded anxiously, voicing my same concerns. Her thoughts were full of a deep motherly concern, one full of love. ââ¬Å"It's fine,â⬠she tried to relieve our tension. ââ¬Å"I just have to remember not to move.â⬠Her words eased some of my panic. Closing my eyes again, I focused on her through Rene's thoughts. Never again. She's not going back to Forks. Thank god for Phil's contract. She'll be so excited. ââ¬Å"Where's Phil?â⬠Bella blurted out, almost as if she were reading her mother's mind too. ââ¬Å"Floridaââ¬â oh, Bella! You'll never guess! Just when we were about to leave, the best news!â⬠ââ¬Å"Phil got signed?â⬠Bella interjected. ââ¬Å"Yes! How did you guess! The Suns, can you believe it?â⬠She can finally move back home! Deep down I could feel the hollowing of my insides along with the burning of my heart at the thought of Bella moving away, but it was the best thing she could do. She should leave, graduate high school, collegeâ⬠¦get married and have kids. Not stay with a vampire who could offer her no future. ââ¬Å"That's great, Mom,â⬠she replied in a questioning enthusiasm. I knew what was going to come next. The borrowed time was lessening. Instantly, I became increasingly nervous. ââ¬Å"And you'll like Jacksonville so much,â⬠she jabbered while Bella stared at her vacantly. ââ¬Å"I was a little bit worried when Phil started talking about Akron, what with the snow and everything, because you know how I hate the cold, but now Jacksonville! It's always sunny, and the humidity really isn't that bad. We found the cutest house, yellow, with white trim, and a porch just like in an old movie, and this huge oak tree, and it's just a few minutes from the ocean, and you'll have your own bathroom ââ¬âââ¬Å" ââ¬Å"Wait, Mom!â⬠Bella interrupted. ââ¬Å"What are you talking about? I'm not going to Florida. I live in Forks.â⬠My heart, my cold, dead, unbeating heartâ⬠¦I swear, it just started beating again. She wanted to stay in a place she hated, and I knew it was because of me. What? Maybe she doesn't understand. Rene smiled. ââ¬Å"But you don't have to anymore, silly,â⬠she laughed. ââ¬Å"Phil will be able to be around so much more nowâ⬠¦ we've talked about it a lot, and what I'm going to do is trade off on the away games, half the time with you, half the time with him.â⬠ââ¬Å"Mom.â⬠Bella hesitated for a second. Automatically I tried to hear her mind, the space between us silent as ever before she spoke. ââ¬Å"I want to live in Forks. I'm already settled in at school, and I have a couple of girlfriendsâ⬠ââ¬â suddenly I was in Rene's vision. It's because of him, I know it. ââ¬â ââ¬Å"and Charlie needs me. He's just all alone up there, and he can't cook at all.â⬠I wasn't sure why, but it was clear that she didn't want to go to Florida with Rene, and I was all for that plan. Even though it wasn't a good plan. Forksâ⬠¦Rene's thoughts were babbling inarticulately. ââ¬Å"You want to stay in Forks?â⬠She spluttered. Again, I was in her vision, my face tense with the conversation. This boyâ⬠¦Does she love him, too? Stillâ⬠¦Forks. Insane. ââ¬Å"Why?â⬠ââ¬Å"I told you ââ¬â school, Charlie ââ¬â â⬠she shrugged ââ¬Å"ouch!â⬠Bella ?C how do I comfort her? Her hand fluttered uselessly over Bella's body. Her eyes narrowed in on an un-bandaged spot and patted lightly. Seriously, though ?C school? Charlie? I don't believe it. ââ¬Å"Bella, honey, you hate Forks,â⬠she stated firmly. ââ¬Å"It's not so bad.â⬠Well, that wasn't the response I was hoping for. Oh, come on. Rene scoffed. Again, I saw my face flash in front of her eyes before she turned back to Bella. ââ¬Å"Is it this boy?â⬠she whispered. Bella opened her mouth and then closed it. What was she thinking? ââ¬Å"He's part of it,â⬠Bella finally spoke nonchalantly. ââ¬Å"So, have you had a chance to talk with Edward?â⬠ââ¬Å"Yes.â⬠He's quite mysteriousâ⬠¦ ââ¬Å"And I want to talk to you about that.â⬠How stupid to even consider someone approving of me for their daughter. ââ¬Å"What about?â⬠Her lips pressed together tightly. ââ¬Å"I think that boy is in love with you,â⬠Rene alleged, keeping her voice low. ââ¬Å"I think so, too.â⬠Despite the situation we were under, I grinned at the memory of our time in the meadow, the first time I confessed my love for her. ââ¬Å"And how do you feel about him?â⬠She was pushing for details, which means Bella will have to lie. I cringed internally at that thought. She was a horrible liar. A small gush of air swept in and out of Bella's lungs before she spoke. ââ¬Å"I'm pretty crazy about him.â⬠This made me happy. I nearly took her life, yet, she was still ââ¬Ëcrazy about' me. ââ¬Å"Well, he seems very nice, and, my goodness, he's incredibly good-looking, but you're so young, Bellaâ⬠¦Ã¢â¬ I was hoping that I wouldn't have to have ââ¬Ëthe talk' with her until she was older. She sighed. What was I expecting? She is seventeen after all. ââ¬Å"I know that, Mom. Don't worry about it. It's just a crush.â⬠Crush? Just a crush? Her words burned more than my thirst. Deep down I knew she was perpetrating a farce, but still, just like at her house before we left for Phoenix, the words caught me off guard. Crushâ⬠¦I can handle that. Then it's not too serious after all. ââ¬Å"That's right,â⬠she agreed. Then she sighed and glanced guiltily over her shoulder at the big, round clock on the wall above my head. I need to get homeâ⬠¦Phil. He'll be worried if I don't answer the phone. Seeing the time for myself I was disheartened that my time with her was slowly passing by. Sooner than I'd like, I would have to leave her forever. Was I brave enough? Did I have enough will powerâ⬠¦enough strength? ââ¬Å"Do you need to go?â⬠Bella interrupted my reverie. ââ¬Å"Phil's supposed to call in a little whileâ⬠¦ I didn't know you were going to wake upâ⬠¦Ã¢â¬ ââ¬Å"No problem, Mom.â⬠Bella said indifferently. ââ¬Å"I won't be alone.â⬠That's right. I'll be here. She was just so soft and vulnerable. It seemed foolhardy to let her out of my sight, where anything could happen to her. And yet, the worst things that could happen to her would result from being with me. Deep down, I wished that she wasn't better off being away from me. I bet you won'tâ⬠¦not with Edward keeping an eye on you. ââ¬Å"I'll be back soon. I've been sleeping here, you know.â⬠ââ¬Å"Oh, Mom, you don't have to do that! You can sleep at home ââ¬â I'll never notice.â⬠The words were slurred slightly, the drugged stupor still not completely worn off. ââ¬Å"I was too nervous,â⬠she admitted sheepishly. ââ¬Å"There's been some crime in the neighborhood, and I don't like being there alone.â⬠Her eyes darted to the newspaper next to the bed. ââ¬Å"Crime?â⬠Bella asked, thunderstruck. It was awful. The building was in ruins. Rene was picturing the remains of the ballet studio. ââ¬Å"Someone broke into that dance studio around the corner from the house and burned it to the ground ââ¬â there's nothing left at all! And they left a stolen car right out front. Do you remember when you used to dance there, honey?â⬠ââ¬Å"I remember,â⬠her voice quivered slightly under ââ¬â what I would expect to be ?C bad memories. She looks scared. Maybe I should stay hereâ⬠¦ ââ¬Å"I can stay, baby, if you need me.â⬠ââ¬Å"No, Mom, I'll be fine. Edward will be with me.â⬠Edward, again. That could also be a good reason to stay. ââ¬Å"I'll be back tonight.â⬠I hope he heard that. She glanced at me again as she thought it. ââ¬Å"I love you, Mom.â⬠ââ¬Å"I love you, too, Bella. Try to be more careful when you walk, honey, I don't want to lose you.â⬠I never realized her clumsiness would come to this though. Seriously ?C a coma in the hospital. I remembered Carlisle looking over Bella's X-ray at the hospital after the van nearly crushed her to death. She had many healed fractures. Trying to suppress laughter, I could stop the grin that spread across my face. I wonder if that hot boy will be in the room. I heard the nurse's thoughts that checked on Bella yesterday. She came bustling in then to check all of the tubes and wires. Rene watched the nurse for a minute. I better get going. I don't want to miss Phil's phone call. He'll be elated to hear that she is awake finally. She kissed Bella's forehead, patted her gauze-wrapped hand, and left. The nurse was checking the paper readout on the heart monitor. Humâ⬠¦I wonder if this is because of him. The nurse pictured my face. He makes my heart do funny things, too. Maybe she is just worried or nervous. I would be if I woke up from a coma, too. ââ¬Å"Are you feeling anxious, honey? Your heart rate got a little high there.â⬠After Rene left I opened my eyes, watching the nurse interact with Bella, pushing her thoughts from my mind. ââ¬Å"I'm fine,â⬠Bella assured the nurse. I'm sure you are. I'd be fine too if he was at my bed side. ââ¬Å"I'll tell your RN that you're awake. She'll be in to see you in a minute.â⬠The nurse turned on her heals and strode quickly out of the room. It took me less than a second to move to her side, so quickly that she didn't see me move from point A to point B. Instead of her being surprised, her tiny eyebrows rose in humor. ââ¬Å"You stole a car?â⬠Duh, I wanted to say. Instead I just smiled. ââ¬Å"It was a good car, very fast,â⬠I refused to apologize; she didn't seem to mind. It had to be fast, my only purpose was to get to her as quickly as I couldâ⬠¦to save her life before James had the opportunity to take her away from me forever. I was too late, but just in time to barely reverse the effects of the venom that had rushed down her veins. ââ¬Å"How was your nap?â⬠She smirked. ââ¬Å"Interesting.â⬠My mind was wondering, remembering her plea to stay in Forks and her word crush. My eyes narrowed slightly and she noticed the change in my facial features. ââ¬Å"What?â⬠Honestly, I was happy with her response to stay in Forks, but disappointed all the same because now I had to find the courage to tell her to go, that she would be better off without me in her life. Was I brave enough? Was I that self sacrificing? By the look on her face she had already read too much into my face so I looked down. ââ¬Å"I'm surprised. I thought Florida â⬠¦ and your motherâ⬠¦well; I thought that's what you would want.â⬠The many nights I watched her sleep, as her worries and thoughts were spoken freely, let me know how much she truly cared for her mother. Also, when she talked about Rene it was if a parent were talking about a child. Was she just tired of the responsibility of her mother? That was uncharacteristic of her, so probably not the culprit to her reasoning to stay in Forks. The word crush rang through my mind again and so I couldn't be the reason, either. When I finally looked up she was staring at me uncomprehendingly. ââ¬Å"But you'd be stuck inside all day in Florida. You'd only be able to come out at night, just like a real vampire.â⬠A real vampire? What am I, chopped liver? The humor quickly passed. It was time to convince her to go back homeâ⬠¦to Florida. ââ¬Å"I would stay in Forks, Bella. Or somewhere like it,â⬠I explained.â⬠Someplace where I couldn't hurt you anymore.â⬠She stared at me with a blank expression, like she was having trouble processing my words. Was it the drugs? Maybe this conversation should wait until she was more aware and alert. I was just making excuses. Her lips turned down into an unfathomable expression as the monitor magnified her heart beats which were quickly increasing. The beeping nose and the pounding in her chest were reaching a dangerous point, going so fast I was nervous. Her breathing picked up along with her heart. Soon, she was gasping, hyperventilating. Her eyes began to water as her face contorted into a horrible grimace of pain. The soft lines of her face were suddenly sharp and defined. I didn't know what to do, what to say. That beeping doesn't sound good. I better go check it out. A different nurse came marching into the room. Maybe she had a remedy that I didn't. She looked over the monitors to see that her regular heart beat, and the insane palpitations that were pulsing wildly through her, were not the same. Wow, she looks like she is in a lot of pain. Jeesh, what a tortured face. . ââ¬Å"Time for more pain meds, sweetheart?â⬠she asked sweetly, tapping the IV feed. ââ¬Å"No, no,â⬠Bella choked out, the pain still clearly in her tone. ââ¬Å"I don't need anything.â⬠Of course, she didn't want to seem weak. ââ¬Å"No need to be brave, honey. It's better if you don't get too stressed out; you need to rest.â⬠The nurse waited, but she just shook her head. ââ¬Å"Okay,â⬠she sighed. ââ¬Å"Hit the call button when you're ready.â⬠This better not be his fault or I'm going to kick him out of the room so she can get some rest. The nurse's stare bore into me, like she was trying to burn a hole through my skull before she glanced at the machinery like she was warning me she could hear it. She left the room. I'll be listening. Ignoring the overly observant nurse I placed my hands on Bella's face to bring her attention back to our conversation. Her eyes were full of moisture, the look in them wild with unease and anxiety. Her heart was still bounding wildly ahead. ââ¬Å"Shhh, Bella, calm down.â⬠I tried to soothe her. ââ¬Å"Don't leave me,â⬠she begged me, her voice cracking with the pain. Her pupils dilated in terror as her lips trembled uncontrollably. When she begged like this, how could I deny her anything? All my plans, all my thoughtsâ⬠¦every second of deciding to leave her crumbled into little pieces. ââ¬Å"I won't,â⬠I promised. ââ¬Å"Now relax before I call the nurse back to sedate you.â⬠Still, her heart continued to thunder along, not relaxing one bit to my words. Great, I was going to give her a heart attack. All my efforts to keep her alive and just the mere thought of my absence would send her over the edge. A second was all it took to change everything: the atmosphere in the room, my mission here, the reason I leaned toward the glorious soul in front of meâ⬠¦ What had been for one purpose before was now for another. To stay. To keep her alive. To prevent her heart from exploding with the pain that I was feeling too. ââ¬Å"Bella.â⬠I lightly brushed her face apprehensively. ââ¬Å"I'm not going anywhere. I'll be right here as long as you need me,â⬠I promised. ââ¬Å"Do you swear you won't leave me?â⬠She whispered a small splutter of terror. She was gasping for air as her heart continued to beat out of control, her pulse continuing to reach a danger point. Her reactions robbed me temporarily of breath. It was oddly disembodying trying to understand her fear, because it was me who couldn't live without her. It shouldn't be the other way around. Before the nurse decides to kick me out of the room I had to calm her down. I took her face between my hands. Her warmth crept up my body slowly as I brought my face only inches from hers before whispering to her, ââ¬Å"I swear.â⬠Her breath was filling the air between us. It was very appealing, but in this moment I was too worried about her heart and her breathing. Each second the rhythmic motion of her breath and her heart slowed. I refused to let go of her until she had calmed down. When the monitors had quieted I sighed in relief. ââ¬Å"Better?â⬠I asked, surveying her face. ââ¬Å"Yes,â⬠she answered, her voice sounded guarded. Under my breath I began muttering so low she wouldn't hear me. ââ¬Å"Beautiful, insane, overly sensitive girl. What an overreaction.â⬠I shook my head. ââ¬Å"Why did you say that?â⬠She whispered. At first, I didn't know if she actually heard what I had muttered. ââ¬Å"Are you tired of having to save me all the time? Do you want me to go away?â⬠Again, insane. With increasing desperation I tried to explain to her that I did want her, that it would literally kill me if she went away. ââ¬Å"No, I don't want to be without you, Bella, of course not. Be rational,â⬠I added sensibly. ââ¬Å"And I have no problem with saving you, either ââ¬â if it weren't for the fact that I was the one putting you in dangerâ⬠¦ that I'm the reason that you're here.â⬠ââ¬Å"Yes, you are the reason,â⬠she interjected with a frown. ââ¬Å"The reason I'm here ââ¬âalive.â⬠I had less resolution than ever. ââ¬Å"Barely.â⬠I choked out. ââ¬Å"Covered in gauze and plaster and hardly able to move.â⬠I stared down at her like it would force her to mend. ââ¬Å"I wasn't referring to my most recent near-death experience,â⬠her voice was slightly irritated. Staring at her, I tried to read her eyes. Yes, I saved her in the past, but that had nothing to do with the present. She was still in this hospital bed because of me. The silence tautened and strained. She finally spoke. ââ¬Å"I was thinking of the others ââ¬â you can take your pick. If it weren't for you, I would be rotting away in the Forks cemetery.â⬠Her voice was like an angry drunken titter from all the drugs in her system. The memories made me wince several times. The van, Port Angelesâ⬠¦my thoughts trailed off, not wanting to think of where she would be if I wasn't there to intercede on her behalf. Then I realized I had already made my decision. I wasn't going to let her leave. If she did I would follow her, even if she was unaware of it. No matter what, I would watch over her, keep her from harm, for as long as I could justify it. Luckily, I don't see how she would ever not need me to keep her safe. I suddenly found myself wishing that her clumsiness would never go away. I looked at her gauze covered wrist, my original thoughts surfacing. ââ¬Å"That's not the worst part, though,â⬠I continued, ignoring her previous words of comfort.â⬠Not seeing you there on the floorâ⬠¦ crumpled and broken.â⬠The words caught in my throat. ââ¬Å"Not thinking I was too late. Not even hearing you scream in pain ââ¬â all those unbearable memories that I'll carry with me for the rest of eternity. No, the very worst was feelingâ⬠¦ knowing that I couldn't stop. Believing that I was going to kill you myself,â⬠my voice tailed away feebly as the memory of her blood in my mouth, swirling sweetly down my throat, surfaced. ââ¬Å"But you didn't,â⬠she pointed out. ââ¬Å"I could have. So easily.â⬠Her breath came a little quicker again. Panic was obvious in her eyes. Did she finally understand that she should fear me? ââ¬Å"Promise me,â⬠she whispered. ââ¬Å"What?â⬠ââ¬Å"You know what.â⬠She gave me an insolent stare. I was wrong; she didn't fear me, just the opposite. How can I promise to never leave when I know one day I will have to? Not now, though. I can't leave her now when she needs me. Still, I gazed uncertainly towards her, my eyes automatically tightening. A lurking doubt resurfaced in my mind. She's here because of me. This is my fault. If I stay ?C this might happen again. I couldn't have that. I could feel the warmth of her pulse in the air and on my skin. Trying to master myself I realized that my time with her was ticking away. Hearing her voice ââ¬â an extraordinary tonic, I might add ââ¬â after the two days of complete and utter silence, settled my thoughts. ââ¬Å"I don't seem to be strong enough to stay away from you, so I suppose that you'll get your wayâ⬠¦ whether it kills you or not,â⬠my tone growing more forlorn with each word. ââ¬Å"Good.â⬠She stated firmly. ââ¬Å"You told me how you stoppedâ⬠¦ now I want to know why,â⬠she demanded. ââ¬Å"Why?â⬠I repeated warily, I hadn't recovered from the shock of the question. ââ¬Å"Why you did it. Why didn't you just let the venom spread? By now I would be just like you.â⬠Her words fell oddly upon my ears and were an unpleasant surprise. Words I didn't expect to hear come out of her mouth. Where did she learn this? In that precise moment it hit me like a bolt of lightning. Alice. A scathing noise escaped my lips as I thought about this. She was a bit sneakier than I realized. But telling Bella about vampire transformations was crossing the line. I couldn't suppress a shiver of loathing. I could feel my nostrils flaring as my lips grew tighter together. I didn't respond, not knowing if Alice really told her, or if it was another one of those legends she read about and was merely guessing how the conversion worked. Bella broke the silence. ââ¬Å"I'll be the first to admit that I have no experience with relationships, but it just seems logicalâ⬠¦ a man and woman have to be somewhat equalâ⬠¦ as in, one of them can't always be swooping in and saving the other one. They have to save each other equally.â⬠It seems her knowledge is not as extensive as I first thought. Of course, in movies and books vampires had to bite their victims to turn them. It was easy for her to deduct these things. Instead of getting angry, I folded my arms on the side of her bed and rested my chin on my arms. Still, I will have to have aâ⬠¦talkâ⬠¦with Alice. I thought about what Bella said though, about saving each other equally. She doesn't realize how much she has saved me, how she pulled me out of the deepest depression that even Jasper has ever seen. My whole family has fallen in love with Bella merely for what her presence has done for me. ââ¬Å"You have saved me,â⬠I said quietly, letting her in on my revelation. ââ¬Å"I can't always be Lois Lane,â⬠she insisted, ignoring me. ââ¬Å"I want to be Superman, too.â⬠Her statements still had me utterly bewildered. She wanted to be a vampire. Of all things in the world that she could ask for, she asks for the one thing I refuse to give. I was unsure of the best way to approach the subject. Bella, I might kill you in the process and you will burn for three days and beg for death before you finally turn into a vampire who never sleeps and is always aching to quench ones thirst. No, that is too much information. ââ¬Å"You don't know what you're asking.â⬠I stared at the edge of her pillowcase, afraid she might see my thoughts displayed across my face. ââ¬Å"I think I do.â⬠ââ¬Å"Bella, you don't know. I've had almost ninety years to think about this, and I'm still not sure,â⬠I tried not to succumb to the rage I felt bubbling under my skin. Why was she pushing this subject? ââ¬Å"Do you wish that Carlisle hadn't saved you?â⬠ââ¬Å"No, I don't wish that.â⬠I used to, but now I realize my fate included Bella, and I would have never met her without Carlisle's rash decision to turn me. ââ¬Å"But my life was over. I wasn't giving anything up.â⬠ââ¬Å"You are my life. You're the only thing it would hurt me to lose,â⬠she admitted, not the least bit embarrassed. No matter how much she pleaded with me, I would never take her soul. It wasn't up for debate. ââ¬Å"I can't do it, Bella. I won't do that to you.â⬠ââ¬Å"Why not?â⬠She croaked. ââ¬Å"Don't tell me it's too hard! After today, or I guess it was a few days agoâ⬠¦ anyway, after that, it should be nothing.â⬠I glared at her. A positively dangerous look crept across my face. ââ¬Å"And the pain?â⬠I asked, curious. She flinched, obviously remembering the fire that burned through her veins. ââ¬Å"That's my problem,â⬠she said coolly. ââ¬Å"I can handle it.â⬠Insane. ââ¬Å"It's possible to take bravery to the point where it becomes insanity.â⬠ââ¬Å"It's not an issue. Three days. Big deal.â⬠Shock so huge it rooted me to the spot and roughly burst through me. Three days. This was something that could have only been told by another vampire. It wasn't Jasper, he respects other's wishes. Alice, on the other handâ⬠¦the very nosy, annoying, short vampire that receives visions, has been pressing the ââ¬Ëturn Bella into a vampire' campaign for a while now. I wonder what vision she is seeing now. It must be flickering, I haven't decided how I am going to get even with her for telling Bella about this. Venom was thundering through my veins. Enough was enough. I didn't want to flat out tell her no. I wanted her to want to be human. Maybe she needed reminders of why she should stay human. ââ¬Å"Charlie?â⬠I asked curtly. ââ¬Å"Rene?â⬠A blank silence greeted my words. She was opening and closing her mouth like words wouldn't form. I waited for her response, but obviously, she didn't have one. Did she finally reach her senses? ââ¬Å"Look, that's not an issue either,â⬠she finally muttered an obvious lie. Apparently she hasn't reached her senses. ââ¬Å"Rene has always made the choices that work for her ââ¬â she'd want me to do the same. And Charlie's resilient; he's used to being on his own. I can't take care of them forever. I have my own life to live.â⬠Was she missing the key words here? If she were to stay human she would have a life to live. If she were a vampire, on the other hand, her life would just become this limitless existence that I refused to make her be a part of. ââ¬Å"Exactly,â⬠I snapped. ââ¬Å"And I won't end it for you.â⬠My careful composure was slipping. ââ¬Å"If you're waiting for me to be on my deathbed, I've got news for you! I was just there!â⬠Lame justification. ââ¬Å"You're going to recover,â⬠I reminded her. She took a deep breath at my words, returning my stare. There was no compromise in her face, and I wasn't budging either. ââ¬Å"No,â⬠Bella said slowly. ââ¬Å"I'm not.â⬠Anger vanished, fear replaced it. Was something else wrong with herâ⬠¦like cancer? Was she not telling me something? No, her life couldn't be like one of those sad stories you read about. My forehead automatically creased with worry. ââ¬Å"Of course you are. You may have a scar or twoâ⬠¦Ã¢â¬ ââ¬Å"You're wrong,â⬠she insisted. ââ¬Å"I'm going to die.â⬠No! She was not going to die, she was going to live. I would fight for her, keep her alive. A sense of hopelessness engulfed me. My mind was lost in a desperate speculation. Panic flared within me. ââ¬Å"Really, Bella.â⬠Anxiety broke through my voice. ââ¬Å"You'll be out of here in a few days. Two weeks at most.â⬠She glared at me like I was an idiot. ââ¬Å"I may not die nowâ⬠¦ but I'm going to die sometime. Every minute of the day, I get closer. And I'm going to get old.â⬠Relief, glorious relief. I frowned at her as her words finally released the tension that built so suddenly. My fingers found my temples as I began to rub them, trying to soothe my troubled mind, closing my eyes. ââ¬Å"That's how it's supposed to happen. How it should happen. How it would have happened if I didn't exist ââ¬â and I shouldn't exist.â⬠She snorted. I opened my eyes in surprise. ââ¬Å"That's stupid. That's like going to someone who's just won the lottery, taking their money, and saying, ââ¬ËLook, let's just go back to how things should be. It's better that way.' And I'm not buying it.â⬠She might have made a point if she used something besides the lottery as an example. ââ¬Å"I'm hardly a lottery prize,â⬠I growled, anger returning. ââ¬Å"That's right. You're much better,â⬠she pointed out. I rolled my eyes and my lips grew tight. It doesn't matter what else she says, she's wasting her breath. To take her soul would be the last thing on earth I would do. She will stay human. Even if Alice tries to take a bite I will tackle and kill if I must. ââ¬Å"Bella, we're not having this discussion anymore. I refuse to damn you to an eternity of night and that's the end of it.â⬠Now stop, I added internally. ââ¬Å"If you think that's the end, then you don't know me very well,â⬠she warned me. ââ¬Å"You're not the only vampire I know.â⬠I will stop her by any means. ââ¬Å"Alice wouldn't dare,â⬠I growled aloud. ââ¬Å"Alice already saw it, didn't she?â⬠She guessed. ââ¬Å"That's why the things she says upset you. She knows I'm going to be like youâ⬠¦ someday.â⬠Dammit! I slipped up. Bella is just too perceptive. I'm going to have to be doubly careful what I say around her, choosing my words more carefully. It's just so hard in a heated argument. ââ¬Å"She's wrong,â⬠I barked angrily. ââ¬Å"She also saw you dead, but that didn't happen, either.â⬠ââ¬Å"You'll never catch me betting against Alice,â⬠she retorted. We glared at each other for several long minutes. The regular intervals of the machines continued into our silence. Bella's heart was weirdly steady considering the heated discussion we just had. She was lying down but her chin till jutted out, her forehead was creased with thought and her lips pursed. My angry expression cleared at her beauty. It was heard to stay upset with such a glorious creature. ââ¬Å"So where does that leave us?â⬠She wondered. I chuckled darkly. ââ¬Å"I believe it's called an impasse.â⬠She sighed. ââ¬Å"Ouch,â⬠she muttered. ââ¬Å"How are you feeling?â⬠I asked. My eyes found the button for the nurse. I wanted to bring my original threat back into play if she didn't behave ?C sedation. ââ¬Å"I'm fine,â⬠she lied, her pain was breaking through the pretense. ââ¬Å"I don't believe you,â⬠I said gently. ââ¬Å"I'm not going back to sleep,â⬠she argued, refusing to let anyone think she was weak. ââ¬Å"You need rest. All this arguing isn't good for you.â⬠ââ¬Å"So give in,â⬠she suggested. ââ¬Å"Nice try.â⬠She wasn't behaving. Time for impulsive action. I reached for the button. ââ¬Å"No!â⬠Her eyes saw my hand reach out. I ignored her. ââ¬Å"Yes?â⬠the speaker on the wall squawked. ââ¬Å"I think we're ready for more pain medication,â⬠I said calmly, ignoring her furious expression. ââ¬Å"I'll send in the nurse.â⬠ââ¬Å"I won't take it,â⬠she said vehemently. Pills? Doubtful. I looked toward the sack of fluids hanging beside her bed. ââ¬Å"I don't think they're going to ask you to swallow anything,â⬠I smiled ruefully. The thundering of her heart jumped up into a faster face. Looking into her deep eyes I read the irrational fear. She needs rest, and medication will make the pain go away so she can do just that. It isn't like there are going to be sticking her with needles. I sighed in frustration. ââ¬Å"Bella, you're in pain. You need to relax so you can heal. Why are you being so difficult? They're not going to put any more needles in you now.â⬠ââ¬Å"I'm not afraid of the needles,â⬠she cried out. ââ¬Å"I'm afraid to close my eyes.â⬠It was hard to be frustrated at her when she said those words. Jubilation doused my previous anger. I smiled. She was just worried that I wouldn't be here. Hadn't I made it clear that I wasn't going anywhere? Her thoughts were completely irrational. I took her face in between my hands so she had to look at me. ââ¬Å"I told you I'm not going anywhere. Don't be afraid. As long as it makes you happy, I'll be here.â⬠She smiled back. ââ¬Å"You're talking about forever, you know.â⬠Then, I remembered her words to Rene. ââ¬Å"Oh, you'll get over it ââ¬â it's just a crush.â⬠She shook her head in disbelief. ââ¬Å"I was shocked when Rene swallowed that one. I know you know better.â⬠One day she will outgrow me, though. My worst fear, yet I prayed she was right, that she would want me forever. ââ¬Å"That's the beautiful thing about being human,â⬠I whispered. ââ¬Å"Things change.â⬠Her eyes narrowed. ââ¬Å"Don't hold your breath,â⬠she retorted. I laughed. I could hold my breath forever if I had too, though I would never do it for something as stupid as wanting Bella to leave me. The nurse came into the room brandishing a syringe. Get out of my way. ââ¬Å"Excuse me,â⬠she said harshly to me. I got up and crossed to the end of the small room, leaning against the wall. I folded My arms and waited. Bella kept her eyes on me, still apprehensive. I met her gaze calmly. ââ¬Å"Here you go, honey.â⬠The nurse smiled as she injected the medicine into Bella's IV. ââ¬Å"You'll feel better now.â⬠ââ¬Å"Thanks,â⬠Bella mumbled, unenthusiastic. It didn't take long. Bella's head already began to lull from side to side. ââ¬Å"That ought to do it,â⬠the nurse muttered as Bella's eyelids drooped. The nurse promptly left the room, eyeing me suspiciously. Even though she was obviously losing consciousness I rushed over to Bella to place my hands on her face, to hold her head still. ââ¬Å"Stay.â⬠Bella slurred. ââ¬Å"I will,â⬠I promised. ââ¬Å"Like I said, as long as it makes you happyâ⬠¦Ã¢â¬ I hesitated, not long enough for Bella to notice. ââ¬Å"As long as it's what's best for you,â⬠I added to my statement. ââ¬Å"ââ¬ËS not the same thing,â⬠she mumbled more inarticulate words. Watching her trying to beat off the medication was kind ofâ⬠¦hilarious. I laughed. ââ¬Å"Don't worry about that now, Bella. You can argue with me when you wake up.â⬠A cheesy grin spread across her face as her eyes became small slits. ââ¬Ëâ⬠Kay.â⬠I continued to try and suppress laughter. I was very glad Emmett wasn't here, the jokes would never end. Looking down at my now drunken beauty, I brought my lips to her ear. ââ¬Å"I love you,â⬠I whispered. ââ¬Å"Me, too.â⬠ââ¬Å"I know,â⬠I laughed quietly at my joke, remembering her saying that when I finally sucked the venom out of her wrist and told her I loved her. Again, I tried to suppress laughter as her head lulled sideways, her lips puckering at a funny angle, facing the opposite direction of my face. I shook my head and brought my lips to hers. ââ¬Å"Thanks,â⬠she sighed. ââ¬Å"Anytime,â⬠I chuckled. She went limp in the bed, but was still struggling to reach reality. ââ¬Å"Ed..war?â⬠she tried to say my name, but it came out all wrong. ââ¬Å"Yes?â⬠I smiled down at her ââ¬Å"I'm betting on Alice,â⬠she mumbled, her words clearer this time. My humor vanished, a frown replaced my smile. This argument was far from over, but no matter what, our deadlock would remain. I kissed her forehead and sat down next to her to hold her hand until she wakes again.
Thursday, October 10, 2019
Design And Make A Coffee Table
What's already on the market TO get a wide range Of options had to do quite a lot Of researching online and in the local hardware did stores such as woodiest and other shops such as Argos and Nava furniture. ; Below are some of the designs that was very impress with it but could not pick it because it did not fit in to my aims of what the project should look like. The reason on very idea is outlined to why I liked it and why I did not approve it. This is another great simple coffee table that will look good with the existing furniture.It is also doing more with less so it is a very good idea. My choice: the reason why I selected this idea was cause it fills all the aims I set out at the start of my investigation/research. This idea serves the comment doing more with less perfectly because it does not require too much wood or expense as it would if I was to make a coffee table and drawers alone so its doing more with less because they are together. It is also something that will free up a lot of space up in the room. Seibel wood types Oak the advantages of Oak are: Oak wood has great strength and hardness It is very resistant to insect and fungal attack It is easy to cut It also looks good It is a very strong wood and resistant to many sets and to rot Beech Advantages of beech wood furniture are: hard materials, textures, the structure is fine wear-resistant and shiny processing, finishing, gluing is better The disadvantage of beech wood furniture is: color and density differences due to age different, makes furniture color is not uniform; kiln drying and processing that is easy to crack and easy to shape.PINE ; Advantages of pine are : Fairly cheap and readily available. Easy to work and finishes well. Durable. ; Disadvantage is that it can be Knotty Dovetail ; Dovetails are the strongest of all joints. The mint is made up Of interlocking wedge-shaped elements called pins and tails that resist the forces applied to the joint. This joint looks attractive and, if well made, the decorative quality can be used to enhance projects. Advantages of Dovetail Joints ; What are the advantages of this type of joint? Strongest of all joints. Large gluing area. Interlocking Resists being pulled apart.Looks attractive. Would hold together even with no glue. ; Mortise & Tendon Joint This joint is a strong and frequently-used joint for assembling a variety of products where strength and reliability are required. The mortise can either be a through mortise, as shown, or a blind mortise that only partly penetrates the stock. The joint is made permanent using adhesive. Dowels are also used to prevent separation. ; Lap Joint Another simple joint is the half-lap joint. This requires the removal of stock to exactly half of the overall thickness of the piece, in order that a similar piece can mate with it.This technique is also used in the cross-halving joint. ; Cross halving ââ¬â Lap Joint The main uses for this joint are to allow two pieces of stock to cro ss such that the joint is contained within the overall thickness of the eternal. Used for structural frames. Glue alone can be used as a fixing method, or combined with screws or nails. ; Finger Joint This joint is a positive permanent strong joint when fixed using adhesive. The long length of glued area is very beneficial to the resulting strength. The in-line version is often used to produce a long length of timber / glued laminate from shorter lengths.The corner version is used for producing strong drawers boxes etc. The joint if made even stronger if the fingers are made using dovetail form ; Chipboard is an artificial wood made like MAD but from actual wood chips, hence the name. It is widely used for the structural casing of kitchen furniture and cabinets which are then covered with a laminate or wood veneer. It is also widely used for low cost sub flooring. It is only useful in sheet form and cannot be easily used or worked in any other format. Elm is valued for its interlock ing grain which gives it a high resistance to splitting, with significant uses in chair seats and coffins. Elm wood is also it quite pliant and is available in long planks due to the long, straight, trunks of the tree, For these reasons elm is favored as a source of timber for keels in ship construction. Elm was historically used by bonders during the Middle Ages to make longbows. ; Mahogany is finely grained hard wood which is reddish brown color. It is extremely durable and resists swelling, shrinking warping and twisting.Mahogany is used extensively for high quality, expensive furniture such as wooden cabinets and veneered tables and dressers. It is also used in the construction of boats due to its high resistance to swelling and warping caused by water ; Plywood is an artificial wood that was invented during the Second World War and was primarily used to build boats and landing craft for the military. It is made from numerous thin laminates of wood glued together. Each layer is at right angle to the grain of the other to give it great strength while also allowing it to remain quite pliable.
Wednesday, October 9, 2019
Twilight 22. HIDE-AND-SEEK
22. HIDE-AND-SEEK It had taken much less time than I'd thought ââ¬â all the terror, the despair, the shattering of my heart. The minutes were ticking by more slowly than usual. Jasper still hadn't come back when I returned to Alice. I was afraid to be in the same room with her, afraid that she would guessâ⬠¦ and afraid to hide from her for the same reason. I would have thought I was far beyond the ability to be surprised, my thoughts tortured and unstable, but I was surprised when I saw Alice bent over the desk, gripping the edge with two hands. ââ¬Å"Alice?â⬠She didn't react when I called her name, but her head was slowly rocking side to side, and I saw her face. Her eyes were blank, dazedâ⬠¦ My thoughts flew to my mother. Was I already too late? I hurried to her side, reaching out automatically to touch her hand. ââ¬Å"Alice!â⬠Jasper's voice whipped, and then he was right behind her, his hands curling over hers, loosening them from their grip on the table. Across the room, the door swung shut with a low click. ââ¬Å"What is it?â⬠he demanded. She turned her face away from me, into his chest. ââ¬Å"Bella,â⬠she said. ââ¬Å"I'm right here,â⬠I replied. Her head twisted around, her eyes locking on mine, their expression still strangely blank. I realized at once that she hadn't been speaking to me, she'd been answering Jasper's question. ââ¬Å"What did you see?â⬠I said ââ¬â and there was no question in my flat, uncaring voice. Jasper looked at me sharply. I kept my expression vacant and waited. His eyes were confused as they flickered swiftly between Alice's face and mine, feeling the chaosâ⬠¦ for I could guess what Alice had seen now. I felt a tranquil atmosphere settle around me. I welcomed it, using it to keep my emotions disciplined, under control. Alice, too, recovered herself. ââ¬Å"Nothing, really,â⬠she answered finally, her voice remarkably calm and convincing. ââ¬Å"Just the same room as before.â⬠She finally looked at me, her expression smooth and withdrawn. ââ¬Å"Did you want breakfast?â⬠ââ¬Å"No, I'll eat at the airport.â⬠I was very calm, too. I went to the bathroom to shower. Almost as if I were borrowing Jasper's strange extra sense, I could feel Alice's wild ââ¬â though well-concealed ââ¬â desperation to have me out of the room, to be alone with Jasper. So she could tell him that they were doing something wrong, that they were going to failâ⬠¦ I got ready methodically, concentrating on each little task. I left my hair down, swirling around me, covering my face. The peaceful mood Jasper created worked its way through me and helped me think clearly. Helped me plan. I dug through my bag until I found my sock full of money. I emptied it into my pocket. I was anxious to get to the airport, and glad when we left by seven. I sat alone this time in the back of the dark car. Alice leaned against the door, her face toward Jasper but, behind her sunglasses, shooting glances in my direction every few seconds. ââ¬Å"Alice?â⬠I asked indifferently. She was wary. ââ¬Å"Yes?â⬠ââ¬Å"How does it work? The things that you see?â⬠I stared out the side window, and my voice sounded bored. ââ¬Å"Edward said it wasn't definiteâ⬠¦ that things change?â⬠It was harder than I would have thought to say his name. That must have been what alerted Jasper, why a fresh wave of serenity filled the car. ââ¬Å"Yes, things changeâ⬠¦Ã¢â¬ she murmured ââ¬â hopefully, I thought. ââ¬Å"Some things are more certain than othersâ⬠¦ like the weather. People are harder. I only see the course they're on while they're on it. Once they change their minds ââ¬â make a new decision, no matter how small ââ¬â the whole future shifts.â⬠I nodded thoughtfully. ââ¬Å"So you couldn't see James in Phoenix until he decided to come here.â⬠ââ¬Å"Yes,â⬠she agreed, wary again. And she hadn't seen me in the mirror room with James until I'd made the decision to meet him there. I tried not to think about what else she might have seen. I didn't want my panic to make Jasper more suspicious. They would be watching me twice as carefully now, anyway, after Alice's vision. This was going to be impossible. We got to the airport. Luck was with me, or maybe it was just good odds. Edward's plane was landing in terminal four, the largest terminal, where most flights landed ââ¬â so it wasn't surprising that his was. But it was the terminal I needed: the biggest, the most confusing. And there was a door on level three that might be the only chance. We parked on the fourth floor of the huge garage. I led the way, for once more knowledgeable about my surroundings than they were. We took the elevator down to level three, where the passengers unloaded. Alice and Jasper spent a long time looking at the departing flights board. I could hear them discussing the pros and cons of New York, Atlanta, Chicago. Places I'd never seen. And would never see. I waited for my opportunity, impatient, unable to stop my toe from tapping. We sat in the long rows of chairs by the metal detectors, Jasper and Alice pretending to people-watch but really watching me. Every inch I shifted in my seat was followed by a quick glance out of the corner of their eyes. It was hopeless. Should I run? Would they dare to stop me physically in this public place? Or would they simply follow? I pulled the unmarked envelope out of my pocket and set it on top of Alice's black leather bag. She looked at me. ââ¬Å"My letter,â⬠I said. She nodded, tucking it under the top flap. He would find it soon enough. The minutes passed and Edward's arrival grew closer. It was amazing how every cell in my body seemed to know he was coming, to long for his coming. That made it very hard. I found myself trying to think of excuses to stay, to see him first and then make my escape. But I knew that was impossible if I was going to have any chance to get away. Several times Alice offered to go get breakfast with me. Later, I told her, not yet. I stared at the arrival board, watching as flight after flight arrived on time. The flight from Seattle crept closer to the top of the board. And then, when I had only thirty minutes to make my escape, the numbers changed. His plane was ten minutes early. I had no more time. ââ¬Å"I think I'll eat now,â⬠I said quickly. Alice stood. ââ¬Å"I'll come with you.â⬠ââ¬Å"Do you mind if Jasper comes instead?â⬠I asked. ââ¬Å"I'm feeling a littleâ⬠¦Ã¢â¬ I didn't finish the sentence. My eyes were wild enough to convey what I didn't say. Jasper stood up. Alice's eyes were confused, but ââ¬â I saw to my relief- not suspicious. She must be attributing the change in her vision to some maneuver of the tracker's rather than a betrayal by me. Jasper walked silently beside me, his hand on the small of my back, as if he were guiding me. I pretended a lack of interest in the first few airport cafes, my head scanning for what I really wanted. And there it was, around the corner, out of Alice's sharp sight: the level-three ladies' room. ââ¬Å"Do you mind?â⬠I asked Jasper as we passed. ââ¬Å"I'll just be a moment.â⬠ââ¬Å"I'll be right here,â⬠he said. As soon as the door shut behind me, I was running. I remembered the time I had gotten lost from this bathroom, because it had two exits. Outside the far door it was only a short sprint to the elevators, and if Jasper stayed where he said he would, I'd never be in his line of sight. I didn't look behind me as I ran. This was my only chance, and even if he saw me, I had to keep going. People stared, but I ignored them. Around the corner the elevators were waiting, and I dashed forward, throwing my hand between the closing doors of a full elevator headed down. I squeezed in beside the irritated passengers, and checked to make sure that the button for level one had been pushed. It was already lit, and the doors closed. As soon as the door opened I was off again, to the sound of annoyed murmurs behind me. I slowed myself as I passed the security guards by the luggage carousels, only to break into a run again as the exit doors came into view. I had no way of knowing if Jasper was looking for me yet. I would have only seconds if he was following my scent. I jumped out the automatic doors, nearly smacking into the glass when they opened too slowly. Along the crowded curb there wasn't a cab in sight. I had no time. Alice and Jasper were either about to realize I was gone, or they already had. They would find me in a heartbeat. A shuttle to the Hyatt was just closing its doors a few feet behind me. ââ¬Å"Wait!â⬠I called, running, waving at the driver. ââ¬Å"This is the shuttle to the Hyatt,â⬠the driver said in confusion as he opened the doors. ââ¬Å"Yes,â⬠I huffed, ââ¬Å"that's where I'm going.â⬠I hurried up the steps. He looked askance at my luggage-less state, but then shrugged, not caring enough to ask. Most of the seats were empty. I sat as far from the other travelers as possible, and watched out the window as first the sidewalk, and then the airport, drifted away. I couldn't help imagining Edward, where he would stand at the edge of the road when he found the end of my trail. I couldn't cry yet, I told myself. I still had a long way to go. My luck held. In front of the Hyatt, a tired-looking couple was getting their last suitcase out of the trunk of a cab. I jumped out of the shuttle and ran to the cab, sliding into the seat behind the driver. The tired couple and the shuttle driver stared at me. I told the surprised cabbie my mother's address. ââ¬Å"I need to get there as soon as possible.â⬠ââ¬Å"That's in Scottsdale,â⬠he complained. I threw four twenties over the seat. ââ¬Å"Will that be enough?â⬠ââ¬Å"Sure, kid, no problem.â⬠I sat back against the seat, folding my arms across my lap. The familiar city began to rush around me, but I didn't look out the windows. I exerted myself to maintain control. I was determined not to lose myself at this point, now that my plan was successfully completed. There was no point in indulging in more terror, more anxiety. My path was set. I just had to follow it now. So, instead of panicking, I closed my eyes and spent the twenty minutes' drive with Edward. I imagined that I had stayed at the airport to meet Edward. I visualized how I would stand on my toes, the sooner to see his face. How quickly, how gracefully he would move through the crowds of people separating us. And then I would run to close those last few feet between us ââ¬â reckless as always ââ¬â and I would be in his marble arms, finally safe. I wondered where we would have gone. North somewhere, so he could be outside in the day. Or maybe somewhere very remote, so we could lay in the sun together again. I imagined him by the shore, his skin sparkling like the sea. It wouldn't matter how long we had to hide. To be trapped in a hotel room with him would be a kind of heaven. So many questions I still had for him. I could talk to him forever, never sleeping, never leaving his side. I could see his face so clearly nowâ⬠¦ almost hear his voice. And, despite all the horror and hopelessness, I was fleetingly happy. So involved was I in my escapist daydreams, I lost all track of the seconds racing by. ââ¬Å"Hey, what was the number?â⬠The cabbie's question punctured my fantasy, letting all the colors run out of my lovely delusions. Fear, bleak and hard, was waiting to fill the empty space they left behind. ââ¬Å"Fifty-eight twenty-one.â⬠My voice sounded strangled. The cabbie looked at me, nervous that I was having an episode or something. ââ¬Å"Here we are, then.â⬠He was anxious to get me out of his car, probably hoping I wouldn't ask for my change. ââ¬Å"Thank you,â⬠I whispered. There was no need to be afraid, I reminded myself. The house was empty. I had to hurry; my mom was waiting for me, frightened, depending on me. I ran to the door, reaching up automatically to grab the key under the eave. I unlocked the door. It was dark inside, empty, normal. I ran to the phone, turning on the kitchen light on my way. There, on the whiteboard, was a ten-digit number written in a small, neat hand. My fingers stumbled over the keypad, making mistakes. I had to hang up and start again. I concentrated only on the buttons this time, carefully pressing each one in turn. I was successful. I held the phone to my ear with a shaking hand. It rang only once. ââ¬Å"Hello, Bella,â⬠that easy voice answered. ââ¬Å"That was very quick. I'm impressed.â⬠ââ¬Å"Is my mom all right?â⬠ââ¬Å"She's perfectly fine. Don't worry, Bella, I have no quarrel with her. Unless you didn't come alone, of course.â⬠Light, amused. ââ¬Å"I'm alone.â⬠I'd never been more alone in my entire life. ââ¬Å"Very good. Now, do you know the ballet studio just around the corner from your home?â⬠ââ¬Å"Yes. I know how to get there.â⬠ââ¬Å"Well, then, I'll see you very soon.â⬠I hung up. I ran from the room, through the door, out into the baking heat. There was no time to look back at my house, and I didn't want to see it as it was now ââ¬â empty, a symbol of fear instead of sanctuary. The last person to walk through those familiar rooms was my enemy. From the corner of my eye, I could almost see my mother standing in the shade of the big eucalyptus tree where I'd played as a child. Or kneeling by the little plot of dirt around the mailbox, the cemetery of all the flowers she'd tried to grow. The memories were better than any reality I would see today. But I raced away from them, toward the corner, leaving everything behind me. I felt so slow, like I was running through wet sand ââ¬â I couldn't seem to get enough purchase from the concrete. I tripped several times, once falling, catching myself with my hands, scraping them on the sidewalk, and then lurching up to plunge forward again. But at last I made it to the corner. Just another street now; I ran, sweat pouring down my face, gasping. The sun was hot on my skin, too bright as it bounced off the white concrete and blinded me. I felt dangerously exposed. More fiercely than I would have dreamed I was capable of, I wished for the green, protective forests of Forksâ⬠¦ of home. When I rounded the last corner, onto Cactus, I could see the studio, looking just as I remembered it. The parking lot in front was empty, the vertical blinds in all the windows drawn. I couldn't run anymore ââ¬â I couldn't breathe; exertion and fear had gotten the best of me. I thought of my mother to keep my feet moving, one in front of the other. As I got closer, I could see the sign inside the door. It was handwritten on hot pink paper; it said the dance studio was closed for spring break. I touched the handle, tugged on it cautiously. It was unlocked. I fought to catch my breath, and opened the door. The lobby was dark and empty, cool, the air conditioner thrumming. The plastic molded chairs were stacked along the walls, and the carpet smelled like shampoo. The west dance floor was dark, I could see through the open viewing window. The east dance floor, the bigger room, was lit. But the blinds were closed on the window. Terror seized me so strongly that I was literally trapped by it. I couldn't make my feet move forward. And then my mother's voice called. ââ¬Å"Bella? Bella?â⬠That same tone of hysterical panic. I sprinted to the door, to the sound of her voice. ââ¬Å"Bella, you scared me! Don't you ever do that to me again!â⬠Her voice continued as I ran into the long, high-ceilinged room. I stared around me, trying to find where her voice was coming from. I heard her laugh, and I whirled to the sound. There she was, on the TV screen, tousling my hair in relief. It was Thanksgiving, and I was twelve. We'd gone to see my grandmother in California, the last year before she died. We went to the beach one day, and I'd leaned too far over the edge of the pier. She'd seen my feet flailing, trying to reclaim my balance. ââ¬Å"Bella? Bella?â⬠she'd called to me in fear. And then the TV screen was blue. I turned slowly. He was standing very still by the back exit, so still I hadn't noticed him at first. In his hand was a remote control. We stared at each other for a long moment, and then he smiled. He walked toward me, quite close, and then passed me to put the remote down next to the VCR. I turned carefully to watch him. ââ¬Å"Sorry about that, Bella, but isn't it better that your mother didn't really have to be involved in all this?â⬠His voice was courteous, kind. And suddenly it hit me. My mother was safe. She was still in Florida. She'd never gotten my message. She'd never been terrified by the dark red eyes in the abnormally pale face before me. She was safe. ââ¬Å"Yes,â⬠I answered, my voice saturated with relief. ââ¬Å"You don't sound angry that I tricked you.â⬠ââ¬Å"I'm not.â⬠My sudden high made me brave. What did it matter now? It would soon be over. Charlie and Mom would never be harmed, would never have to fear. I felt almost giddy. Some analytical part of my mind warned me that I was dangerously close to snapping from the stress. ââ¬Å"How odd. You really mean it.â⬠His dark eyes assessed me with interest. The irises were nearly black, just a hint of ruby around the edges. Thirsty. ââ¬Å"I will give your strange coven this much, you humans can be quite interesting. I guess I can see the draw of observing you. It's amazing ââ¬â some of you seem to have no sense of your own self-interest at all.â⬠He was standing a few feet away from me, arms folded, looking at me curiously. There was no menace in his face or stance. He was so very average-looking, nothing remarkable about his face or body at all. Just the white skin, the circled eyes I'd grown so used to. He wore a pale blue, long-sleeved shirt and faded blue jeans. ââ¬Å"I suppose you're going to tell me that your boyfriend will avenge you?â⬠he asked, hopefully it seemed to me. ââ¬Å"No, I don't think so. At least, I asked him not to.â⬠ââ¬Å"And what was his reply to that?â⬠ââ¬Å"I don't know.â⬠It was strangely easy to converse with this genteel hunter. ââ¬Å"I left him a letter.â⬠ââ¬Å"How romantic, a last letter. And do you think he will honor it?â⬠His voice was just a little harder now, a hint of sarcasm marring his polite tone. ââ¬Å"I hope so.â⬠ââ¬Å"Hmmm. Well, our hopes differ then. You see, this was all just a little too easy, too quick. To be quite honest, I'm disappointed. I expected a much greater challenge. And, after all, I only needed a little luck.â⬠I waited in silence. ââ¬Å"When Victoria couldn't get to your father, I had her find out more about you. There was no sense in running all over the planet chasing you down when I could comfortably wait for you in a place of my choosing. So, after I talked to Victoria, I decided to come to Phoenix to pay your mother a visit. I'd heard you say you were going home. At first, I never dreamed you meant it. But then I wondered. Humans can be very predictable; they like to be somewhere familiar, somewhere safe. And wouldn't it be the perfect ploy, to go to the last place you should be when you're hiding ââ¬â the place that you said you'd be. ââ¬Å"But of course I wasn't sure, it was just a hunch. I usually get a feeling about the prey that I'm hunting, a sixth sense, if you will. I listened to your message when I got to your mother's house, but of course I couldn't be sure where you'd called from. It was very useful to have your number, but you could have been in Antarctica for all I knew, and the game wouldn't work unless you were close by. ââ¬Å"Then your boyfriend got on a plane to Phoenix. Victoria was monitoring them for me, naturally; in a game with this many players, I couldn't be working alone. And so they told me what I'd hoped, that you were here after all. I was prepared; I'd already been through your charming home movies. And then it was simply a matter of the bluff. ââ¬Å"Very easy, you know, not really up to my standards. So, you see, I'm hoping you're wrong about your boyfriend. Edward, isn't it?â⬠I didn't answer. The bravado was wearing off. I sensed that he was coming to the end of his gloat. It wasn't meant for me anyway. There was no glory in beating me, a weak human. ââ¬Å"Would you mind, very much, if I left a little letter of my own for your Edward?â⬠He took a step back and touched a palm-sized digital video camera balanced carefully on top of the stereo. A small red light indicated that it was already running. He adjusted it a few times, widened the frame. I stared at him in horror. ââ¬Å"I'm sorry, but I just don't think he'll be able to resist hunting me after he watches this. And I wouldn't want him to miss anything. It was all for him, of course. You're simply a human, who unfortunately was in the wrong place, at the wrong time, and indisputably running with the wrong crowd, I might add.â⬠He stepped toward me, smiling. ââ¬Å"Before we beginâ⬠¦Ã¢â¬ I felt a curl of nausea in the pit of my stomach as he spoke. This was something I had not anticipated. ââ¬Å"I would just like to rub it in, just a little bit. The answer was there all along, and I was so afraid Edward would see that and ruin my fun. It happened once, oh, ages ago. The one and only time my prey escaped me. ââ¬Å"You see, the vampire who was so stupidly fond of this little victim made the choice that your Edward was too weak to make. When the old one knew I was after his little friend, he stole her from the asylum where he worked ââ¬â I never will understand the obsession some vampires seem to form with you humans ââ¬â and as soon as he freed her he made her safe. She didn't even seem to notice the pain, poor little creature. She'd been stuck in that black hole of a cell for so long. A hundred years earlier and she would have been burned at the stake for her visions. In the nineteen-twenties it was the asylum and the shock treatments. When she opened her eyes, strong with her fresh youth, it was like she'd never seen the sun before. The old vampire made her a strong new vampire, and there was no reason for me to touch her then.â⬠He sighed. ââ¬Å"I destroyed the old one in vengeance.â⬠ââ¬Å"Alice,â⬠I breathed, astonished. ââ¬Å"Yes, your little friend. I was surprised to see her in the clearing. So I guess her coven ought to be able to derive some comfort from this experience. I get you, but they get her. The one victim who escaped me, quite an honor, actually. ââ¬Å"And she did smell so delicious. I still regret that I never got to tasteâ⬠¦ She smelled even better than you do. Sorry ââ¬â I don't mean to be offensive. You have a very nice smell. Floral, somehowâ⬠¦Ã¢â¬ He took another step toward me, till he was just inches away. He lifted a lock of my hair and sniffed at it delicately. Then he gently patted the strand back into place, and I felt his cool fingertips against my throat. He reached up to stroke my cheek once quickly with his thumb, his face curious. I wanted so badly to run, but I was frozen. I couldn't even flinch away. ââ¬Å"No,â⬠he murmured to himself as he dropped his hand, ââ¬Å"I don't understand.â⬠He sighed. ââ¬Å"Well, I suppose we should get on with it. And then I can call your friends and tell them where to find you, and my little message.â⬠I was definitely sick now. There was pain coming, I could see it in his eyes. It wouldn't be enough for him to win, to feed and go. There would be no quick end like I'd been counting on. My knees began to shake, and I was afraid I was going to fall. He stepped back, and began to circle, casually, as if he were trying to get a better view of a statue in a museum. His face was still open and friendly as he decided where to start. Then he slumped forward, into a crouch I recognized, and his pleasant smile slowly widened, grew, till it wasn't a smile at all but a contortion of teeth, exposed and glistening. I couldn't help myself- I tried to run. As useless as I knew it would be, as weak as my knees already were, panic took over and I bolted for the emergency door. He was in front of me in a flash. I didn't see if he used his hand or his foot, it was too fast. A crushing blow struck my chest ââ¬â I felt myself flying backward, and then heard the crunch as my head bashed into the mirrors. The glass buckled, some of the pieces shattering and splintering on the floor beside me. I was too stunned to feel the pain. I couldn't breathe yet. He walked toward me slowly. ââ¬Å"That's a very nice effect,â⬠he said, examining the mess of glass, his voice friendly again. ââ¬Å"I thought this room would be visually dramatic for my little film. That's why I picked this place to meet you. It's perfect, isn't it?â⬠I ignored him, scrambling on my hands and knees, crawling toward the other door. He was over me at once, his foot stepping down hard on my leg. I heard the sickening snap before I felt it. But then I did feel it, and I couldn't hold back my scream of agony. I twisted up to reach for my leg, and he was standing over me, smiling. ââ¬Å"Would you like to rethink your last request?â⬠he asked pleasantly. His toe nudged my broken leg and I heard a piercing scream. With a shock, I realized it was mine. ââ¬Å"Wouldn't you rather have Edward try to find me?â⬠he prompted. ââ¬Å"No!â⬠I croaked. ââ¬Å"No, Edward, don't-â⬠And then something smashed into my face, throwing me back into the broken mirrors. Over the pain of my leg, I felt the sharp rip across my scalp where the glass cut into it. And then the warm wetness began to spread through my hair with alarming speed. I could feel it soaking the shoulder of my shirt, hear it dripping on the wood below. The smell of it twisted my stomach. Through the nausea and dizziness I saw something that gave me a sudden, final shred of hope. His eyes, merely intent before, now burned with an uncontrollable need. The blood ââ¬â spreading crimson across my white shirt, pooling rapidly on the floor ââ¬â was driving him mad with thirst. No matter his original intentions, he couldn't draw this out much longer. Let it be quick now, was all I could hope as the flow of blood from my head sucked my consciousness away with it. My eyes were closing. I heard, as if from underwater, the final growl of the hunter. I could see, through the long tunnels my eyes had become, his dark shape coming toward me. With my last effort, my hand instinctively raised to protect my face. My eyes closed, and I drifted.
Hispanic Diversity Research Paper Example | Topics and Well Written Essays - 1250 words
Hispanic Diversity - Research Paper Example Cuban Americans represent one of the most prominent Hispanic ethnic groups residing within the United States. In terms of social aspects, the Cuban American family structure is notable as for Hispanic Americans they have the lowest percentage of families with five people or more; conversely, they have the highest percentage among Hispanic Americans with two-person families (Ramirez 2006). As Cuba was under Spanish rule for a considerable period of time, Cuban culture is today recognized as being heavily influenced by this Spanish period. Still, perhaps the most politically notable element of Cuban Americans is the affiliation with the Castro-regime. A long-time political enemy of the United States, most Cuban Americans resent Fidel Castro for the political rule he instituted on Cuba. Cubans Americans as such have immigrated to the United States in a number of waves beginning most prominently in the 1960s. In the 1970s, Castro himself released a great number of Cubans to the United St ates in what would be deemed the Muriel Boatlift. Unique among Hispanic groups residing in America, Cuban Americans are generally conservative. This is attributed both as a rejection of Cuban authoritarian regimes and out of a general distaste for the Democratic Party dating back to the Kennedy administration. Cuban Americans are recognized as economically disenfranchised within the United States. Their average salary is indicated to be below $32,000 a year (Ramirez 2006). In terms of religion Cuban Americans generally, practice Catholicism. Linguistically Cuban Americans speak a combination of English and Spanish. While the majority of Cuban Americans speak English, their level of English proficiency is understood to vary in accordance with their level of acculturation. Another major recognized Hispanic group residing in the United States are Columbian Americans. Columbian immigration to the United States began as early as World War I, as many professionals moved to New York City. This number increased well into the 1980s (Bryan 2007). While initially, Columbian Americans resided in metropolitan areas, their social movements have changed in the last twenty years, with increased movements to suburban areas. Also similar to social and economic trends among other Hispanic groups, Columbian Americans were recognized for taking work in jobs and industries that had been abandoned by other ethnic groups. With the increasing technological advances of the late 20th century, Columbian Americans increasingly found themselves at economic disadvantages with respect to more established and educated ethnic groups in the United States (Bryan 2007). Politically Columbians are generally liberal. Religiously Columbians generally practice Catholicism. Linguistically Columbian Americans are similar to most other Hispanic ethnic groups in that they speak Spanish and English. Also similar to other Hispanic groups their level of English proficiency is greatly contingent on their lev el of acculturation. Indeed, a great amount of Columbians residing in America lack citizenship status. In terms of family dynamics, Columbians are recognized as attempting to preserve the dynamics that they constructed in Columbia, with the male as the primary wage earner and the female as the head of the household. Children are expected to follow strict family authority as taught by their parents.Ã Ã
Monday, October 7, 2019
Initial business idea Term Paper Example | Topics and Well Written Essays - 2250 words
Initial business idea - Term Paper Example These people are those who appreciate a good healthy snack, and would have the purchasing power to patronize my products. A specialty tea shop needs as much above the line advertisements as below the line efforts. I will select proper media exposure in local newspapers and radio stations, and would go heavy on leaflets and billboards, and in store promotions. Target Market will be identified by first enumerating the qualities of each product to be offered. What are the products and variations to be served? What are the key benefits of these products? Do we put premium on its commercial appeal by engaging competitors in a price war and creating advertising plans that challenge the benefits of other similar products? Or do we want to maintain a certain brand image, and preserve the quality of the products notwithstanding other factors such as pricing? Having done all these, I came to the conclusion that I would like my business to appeal to a certain niche market, but not alienating the popular crowd. I would be serving health products ââ¬â specialty tea, coffee and confectionaries. I would like my target market to find appeal in the thought that they would be enjoying cost efficient but highly healthy snacks in my tea shop. My target market covers a wide age range. These may be college students who would want to spend quiet time catching up on notes and lessons while having good snacks. I also consider young professionals and adults who now have the capacity to pay for a type of snack that would greatly be beneficial to their health. Since the young professionals and adults are more health conscious nowadays due to the rise in the number of health drinks in supermarkets, they are the kind of market that would enjoy the products that I would offer. Lastly, those belonging to the 40s to 60s age bracket are those who are partic ularly conscious about the food they eat, and would find joy in this new alternative being offered to
Sunday, October 6, 2019
Law of Evidence Essay Example | Topics and Well Written Essays - 1500 words - 3
Law of Evidence - Essay Example This is the case with Carrie, because she has admitted under cross examination that she had made one prior false complaint of rape against another man. Therefore, in the interest of preserving fairness and equity to the defendant in the case, the Judge may have to issue a warning to the jury to exercise caution. Moreover, the content of his warning should also take into account the fact that she has made a prior false complaint. Therefore, the judge may warn the jury to exercise caution and may suggest to the jury that they look for supporting evidence before arriving at a decision basely solely on Carrieââ¬â¢s evidence. (b) If Carrie had indeed been raped, she would have mentioned it to her friend Eva whom she saw first after the incident, but her response when Eve asked if she was all right was ââ¬Å"sure, why not?â⬠This further substantiates the grounds that Carrie is an unreliable witness The prosecution is likely to argue against the issue of a Manjukola warning. They are likely to state that the entire question of corroboration warnings which purportedly allowed protection for defendants was done away with by the Criminal Justice and Public Order Act of 1994. The reason for this was the complexity they brought into judicial proceedings and their tendency to confuse judges. Therefore they are likely to argue that Carrieââ¬â¢s interests will be compromised and the jury will be unnecessarily prejudiced through the issue of a Manjukola warning which is not necessary. 2. The two major issues that arise with this scenario are (a) Stefanââ¬â¢s silence in Court especially in connection with his alibi which could establish innocence and (b) the need for protection of the young witness Ingrid who has been threatened. Stefan will be treated as a competent witness for himself but not as a compellable witness. Therefore, he will be
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